I'm starting to think my blog name needs to be changed to the inappropriate blogger - a woman's guide to being overly honest, having zero dignity and owning it. Some thing's just probably shouldn't be shared, but in this blog they have been, oh yes, they have been shared, they have been shared like a bad bout of crabs, the more you keep going the worse it gets. I cant stop being inappropriate, and I'm not apologising, merely letting you know.
Which brings me to my next open topic, I was back at the clinic again today, they wanted to get a couple of swabs of the area done incase I have an infection, at this stage it's not dangerous to the potential baby, but it could be later down the track, so that's why they need to find out.So legs back up in the air, back in the stirrups, uncomfortable speculum back inside me, dignity gone. As if I had any left. Mother's say you lose all your dignity when you give birth, well mines gone already, when I head into the hospital to give birth, I may as well stroll in there bottom half already off saying "I don't need a private room, save yourself the hassle, ill just give birth right here in the waiting room". Anyhow I will know the results in 2 days. In the meantime I've been told to lay off the yoghurt, so much for the miracle cure! and keep up with the cold salt water baths. So back in to the baby bath I go.
Who needs their dignity anyhow, I never had much to lose in the first place. I guess inappropriate honesty and dignity don't really go hand in hand do they.
Ouch... don't worry - there is no dignity in infertility, child birth, breast-feeding or anything mum related :) You're getting a head start... but not very pleasant for you :( Hope it improves and the 2WW is bearable. Thinking of you xo
ReplyDeleteLet it out girl!! Hang in there, you have so many people thinking of you, you are not alone.
ReplyDeleteHope you are feeling better, have a good day.
ha!!! this made me laugh. You are very right about this. I think at least we all get very comfortable with vaginal exams, shots, needles, blood draws, and minor surgical procedures!!! No need to get nervous going to the dr's anymore....
ReplyDeleteOh my goodness - I'm sorry I've been so busy and am just now catching up, but boy you're a funny girl! I'm so sorry you have this flaming problem...
ReplyDeleteAnd I really hope you get fabulous results in a couple days - everything crossed!
You poor thing!!! I love your honesty? Hey when do you find out if you are pregnant?
ReplyDeleteHa ha ha I have often thought the same thing. Nothing says losing your dignity like having the whole clinic stare at your hoo ha! Not long to go!
ReplyDeleteIt's so true! I went through airport security recently and asked for a pat down vs the xray machine (I didn't want those xrays damaging my follicles!). They asked if I wanted a private room for the pat down or whether they could do it out in the open. I'm like please I have no dignity at this point - pat me down here in the open. I'm so used to being poked and prodded at this point that a little above the clothes airport pat down is nothing!
ReplyDeleteAnyway, hang in there! Here's hoping your 2ww flies by!
Oh honey- I lost my dignity YEARS ago! When you go through infertility you become like a science project. It's like.....for those that haven't seen "this"...well come on in and behold the amazing infertile woman!! Wahoo!
ReplyDeleteWhen I had OHSS....there were about 10 strangers squeezed into the tiny U/Sbroom (with poor husband smashed up against the wall,) while me...half naked stopped giving a shit who saw all my lady parts. Yippee!