Unfortunately we are currently having a bit of a scare! I am writing this as am hoping for some feedback that may be of help to me and make me feel better.
So at about 7.30pm I felt something in my knickers, like a drip that just didn't feel right, so I checked and it was blood! I ripped my knickers off and showed gardener guy and burst into tears, uncontrollable tears, how can this be happening to me? This is my worse nightmare. Anyhow I was panicking, but gardener guy was great as usual, he told me to calm down and this can mean nothing. We decided to ring the clinic emergency number so we would get put through to our fertility doctor, I couldn't talk so gardener guy rang him and we have a scan scheduled for tomorrow at 11am. Our doctor told us to try not to panic and this can be completely normal and it happens alot, so now we just wait till tomorrow and pray that our baby is still alive and the heartbeat is nice and strong.
I went to the toilet a wee while after the scare and there was blood in the toilet and some blood when I wiped. I put in a pad and there has been a little bit of spotting. I just went to the toilet now and there is now no blood in the toilet but still brown blood when I wipe, but definitely less. I have no cramps either. I really hope this is ok, I know so many woman who have had this and are all fine so lets hope that's me too. My HCG levels have all been rising really well so that's a good sign too.
I tell you what, I have never felt quite so scared as I did when I saw that blood, in an instance I felt like our dreams were all slipping away. I now feel ok, I have to stay positive, I cant possibly take any more disappointment, I think I have been through enough. I feel like me and gardener guy have gotten so carried away in the last few weeks and then bam, just like this it all comes crumbling down.
Nothing more to say, will let you all know what happens tomorrow. Prayers please for a lovely strong heartbeat.