Oh my goodness, only one day to go till we get our results. To say I'm nervous would be an understatement. Tuesday just cant come too soon, either way I need to know. I need to either move on and get ready for a frozen transfer or celebrate!
I know my last post was a bit doom and gloom and I do feel alot more positive again, it was just the start of those cramps that freaked me out. Now that I have got used to them and I don't have my period I am feeling better. As for those cramps, well they have been on and off since Saturday, mostly they are quite dull cramps but they are similar to period cramping. They are definitely on and off, for example yesterday I was out to lunch with some girlfriends and there was no sign of the cramps and then that night they were back again. They seem to be worse at night, strange.
I'm freaking out, I still keep expecting to see blood when I go to the toilet, putting the pessaries up there is a major stress in itself (and excuse me for what I'm about to say), I always worry that I'm going to see blood but its always just the white sticky pessaries so far! could our good luck continue?
Last night I was lying in bed thinking about who I am going to ring, then the blog, then who I am going to text, then a message on facebook. I'm not shy, I will not be hiding it from anyone, I will want to scream it from the roof tops!
If it should be bad, well I pretty much know how I'm going to feel, I have been there before and its bloody horrible. It takes a hell of alot of strength and courage to get back up and try again, but really what choice will we have, we cant give up, so we wont.
Thanks for all your words of encouragement and help to keep my spirits up, We just cant change what is going to happen tomorrow the only thing we can do is try our hardest to manage it if we are dealt a bad hand, and If we are dealt a good hand tomorrow well you are going to hear from one amazingly excited over the top happy woman, please please please let it be good news!!