Monday, June 13, 2011

What will it be?

Oh my goodness, only one day to go till we get our results. To say I'm nervous would be an understatement. Tuesday just cant come too soon, either way I need to know. I need to either move on and get ready for a frozen transfer or celebrate!

I know my last post was a bit doom and gloom and I do feel alot more positive again, it was just the start of those cramps that freaked me out. Now that I have got used to them and I don't have my period I am feeling better. As for those cramps, well they have been on and off since Saturday, mostly they are quite dull cramps but they are similar to period cramping. They are definitely on and off, for example yesterday I was out to lunch with some girlfriends and there was no sign of the cramps and then that night they were back again. They seem to be worse at night, strange.

I'm freaking out, I still keep expecting to see blood when I go to the toilet, putting the pessaries  up there is a major stress in itself  (and excuse me for what I'm about to say), I always worry that I'm going to see blood but its always just the white sticky pessaries so far! could our good luck continue?

Last night I was lying in bed thinking about who I am going to ring, then the blog, then who I am going to text, then a message on facebook. I'm not shy, I will not be hiding it from anyone, I will want to scream it from the roof tops!


If it should be bad, well I pretty much know how I'm going to feel, I have been there before and its bloody horrible. It takes a hell of alot of strength and courage to get back up and try again, but really what choice will we have, we cant give up, so we wont.

Thanks for all your words of encouragement and help to keep my spirits up, We just cant change what is going to happen tomorrow the only thing we can do is try our hardest to manage it if we are dealt a bad hand, and If we are dealt a good hand tomorrow well you are going to hear from one amazingly excited over the top happy woman, please please please let it be good news!!







17 comments:

  1. Fingers crossed for a BFP!! I'll be anxiously awaiting the news. I started stims last Thursday. ER & ET last week of June.

    Just wanted to say that I appreciate your honesty and your humor...been a big help to me as I navigate this crazy IVF train!

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  2. So excited for you! Can't wait to hear your results tomorrow! I feel like I'm going on this ride with you! Praying for good news! You sooo deserve it! =)

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  3. Best of luck :)

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  4. Looks like we're on a similar cycle. I'm getting my Beta tomorrow. And I've been cramping on and off since transfer so who knows? Good luck to you. :)

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  5. Can't wait to hear the results!!! I so hope it is the good - no great news you have been waiting for!!!

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  6. Oh...it is so close now!!! I am on the edge of my seat C! I can't wait to read your good news tomorrow!!!

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  7. Good luck- I look forward to reading a wonderful post tomorrow!

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  8. fingers crossed for your BFP!! I can't wait to hear about it.. keep thinking positive =)

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  9. Everything's crossed for you!!! I'm so very hopeful for you!!! And I definitely had cramps during the 2ww, and beyond, when I got pregnant...

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  10. Ahhh! I hope you get your BFP you so deserve! I will be waiting for the result tomorrow!!!

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  11. Ooohhh Im hoping that you get your BFP and Ill shout YIPEE from here...goodluck and thanks for letting me know you are getting AF cramps too

    Sorry my blog does not tell me you have updatead your blog and only that you posted on mine I thought I better check

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  12. Praying for you that you hear something great!!!

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  13. good luck! ♥ hopefully (and most probably) it'll be good news :D i'm sooo exciteddd!

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  14. best wishes for the BFP!!! I'll be checking in as soon as I get home from camping! =0)

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  15. Sending positive thoughts and prayers your way!

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  16. Waiting...waiting...waiting!

    I'm on pins and needles girl. How did it go today?!

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