Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Fertilization report.

The scientist rang us this morning. I'm not going to dick around here, Ill tell you like it is. Out of the 9 eggs retrieved, 5 fertilized with gardener guys sperm. Out of the 9 eggs, 1 was abnormal. So out hit rate was basically 5 out of 8. Not to bad I suppose, we have 5 to work with, so it's 2 more than last round. I guess I should be pleased, and in a way I am ok with that number but I'm also pissed off, why couldn't something brilliant happen and 8 or the whole 9 fertilize, why is it that for the past 2 years we have nothing but bad news or ok news, where the hell is our amazing news.


Tomorrow the scientist will ring and tell us how many have split into nice 4 cell embryos, and we may get a better idea as to weather we will have a 3 day or 5 day transfer.


I just feel a bit shit today, I'm just so worried again that our numbers are going to drop even more, its so damn hard to stay optimistic. I'm grumpy and fed up and don't want to work, but I am, I just want to crawl back into bed and stay there till my transfer, and knowing my luck something terrible will happen and I will get OHSS and there will be no damn transfer. 

I know this is a really bad way to be thinking and I hate myself for it, I don't want to think like this, I need to keep positive. Gardener guy just rang me from work and made me feel a little better, saying its still ok, we just need to hope we don't lose anymore of those 5, things may turn around and we may be left with 5 amazing strong embryos.


It's funny how as soon as a part of you is in someone else's hands you become very protective, last night when we are lying in bed my husband said to me " i want to go into the lab and see what is going on" he jokingly said " Ill ring the doctor on call and ask him to open up the lab for me", I said "oh yes, take a mattress with you and you can sleep in there overnight to keep an eye on our babies, we don't want them getting confused and thinking the lab guy is their father", this ridiculous conversation carried on to gardener guy saying that he wants to talk to them so they will grow better. Oh, how we come up with the best ideas when lying in bed. 

On the OHSS subject, I have no idea at this point if I have it. All I am feeling is a bit achy, this is probably from the egg retrieval, I don't have any cramps, its more like I have done too many sit ups and feel a bit stiff and aching. I have stopped bleeding, which is alot quicker than last cycle. I will let you know if I start to show signs of OHSS. Did anyone else feel a bit stiff and sore on the day after retrieval?


For now I need to put on my happy face (if I can find it buried under all the sad and anxious faces) and realize we are still very much in the game, it gets hard but I want to still have all that hope alive. Any words of encouragement would really be appreciated now, also if you could let me know how many eggs you had and then how many fertilized that would be great too. Thanks to all.

13 comments:

  1. So sorry you are feeling bad about the fertilization report. We didn't have the greatest results either - we only had 3 fertilize...but I am pregnant now with 1 beautiful little baby - so a less than expected report doesn't mean that you won't get your desired results!(I am sure you know this, but I know it helped me to hear stories of people succeeding with not a lot of embryos). I am praying for you that those 5 grow strong!!!

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  2. 5 is a great number. Try to stay positive and good things are bound to come. Millions of women get pregnant every day from just one fertilized egg - let's hope that 5 will do it for you. I know how hard all this can be but I hope that you see what a great number 5 is and hope you get your miracle very soon.

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  3. 5 out of 9 is really good! All you need are one (or two) fabulous ones to hang on :) I know how hard it is to stay positive, I am right there with you right now. Hang tight and wishing for good news tomorrow.
    As for stiff/sore...I was definitely sore, this past time way more but I was way more bloated. Heating pad was my saving grace :)

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  4. Thinking of you - I know how hard it is to stay positive during this. Hang in there honey.

    http://www.painpromiseunfulfilleddreams.blogspot.com/

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  5. Hey C- My early symptoms of OHSS were nausea, vomiting and a severe bloat that made me feel full even when I wasn't eating much. Check out some of my posts from January, I know I go into a lot of detail with how I was feeling from day to day, and each day after retrieval.

    Hang in there friend! 5 is a great number to work with, so there is still TONS of hope!!!

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  6. HI there yes please stay positive...it aint over until the fat lady sings and you have 5 so thats great!! :) Like all the rest of the ladies it only takes one and it was great to read it happened for them as well with low numbers considering I have only one and thanks for commenting on my blog too..blessings to us for a transfer

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  7. Hi,
    In response to your question on my blog...we transferred all three day 3 embryos - and 1 took. Hang in there!!

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  8. Hang in there! 5 is a great number, and you should get at least 1 or 2 to transfer. I'm a new follower of your blog and was attracted to your blog as I am just 1 day ahead of you on my own IVF cycle. I guess we are sort of cycle buddies? This is our 3rd fresh IVF cycle and we have had mixed results from all 3 - first cycle we had 12 eggs, 9 fert, 4 made it to 5 days. Second cycle we had 3 eggs, 3 fert, 2 made it to 4 days. On Monday I had 10 eggs, 8 fert and will find out on Friday how many we have to transfer. Good Luck ... I will be sprinkling baby dust on the both of us.

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  9. I understand all of this. Even when things go fine, I wonder why they are never stellar. I also feel very motherly toward my embryos and it is hard to know that they are out there in a lab and that you have no idea what is going on with them.
    I am wishing you so much luck and hoping for good news and a smooth transfer!!

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  10. Having 5 to work with is great!!!

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  11. 5 is great! So glad to hear the retrieval went well, and you're now waiting to hear about when your transfer will be. I'm keeping everything crossed for you!

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  12. Congrats to you, my friend! Hang in and stay positive! I am rooting for you! :-)

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  13. I dont have anything to add about eggs etc, but I like the number 5, because that's the day most kids start school, and there is a huuuuuuuuuuuggggggeeeeeeee chance that in 40 weeks + 5 years, your son/daughter will be going to school. When they're 5. Like your 5 brilliant eggs. And maybe you will end up having 5 children. And heaps of people can count to 5 in different languages. And 5 rhymes with alive.

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