The clock is going slow, im now desperate to know my result. Today is Monday morning, and the Clinic will ring my Friday afternoon. I had a phone call from them this morning, just to check in. They are all very sweet and there is one nurse in particular that looks after me and I really like her and feel comfortable chatting to her so I am pleased for that.
Im so scared, I need this to be a positive, It will be Christmas Eve, how am I meant to put on a happy face and get into Christmas. It cant be negative. Although it probably will be, that's all Im used to, so that's all I know. The thought of having to go pay for IVF with the chance that may also not work is awful. Of course we will do that, and its not the toll it will take on my body im worried about, it's the end result.I can cope with feeling horrible physically, it's the mental aspect of this all that I really struggle with.
So there is no other option, Positive it has to be.I cant be upset again. I cant upset my Gardener Guy again. This week is going to possibly be the worse week so far of this whole IUI journey. Iv'e got everything riding on this. Why cant I just be lucky for once!
Till friday I will just have to keep watching that clock as it turns slowly slowly slowly........