Cycle day 3 is upon me. Day 2 of Puregon. I'm so tired. Woke up 25 minutes late this morning so had to rush round to get ready in time, and then had a nap on the couch at 9am! for goodness sake nana.
I am feeling good though, Have a niggling headache, but that's ok, I pretty much had a headache the whole 5 days I was on Clomiphene so that's bearable.
Last night's Injection session went well, My Gardener guy was so gentle. I Didn't really feel the needle go in, was more just like a bee sting for a few minutes after. I had my usual freak out, saying I was scared and couldn't do it, but of course it was fine, ill probably say the same thing again tonight, and then it will probably be a walk in the park. What a baby I am!
I got to thinking, while I was out walking today, of what i want from this cycle. Well obviously a baby, but what i would be happy with or disappointed with throughout the cycle. I think I would be really happy with 10 plus eggs at retrieval, really anything above 10 would be a bonus. I think if i get below 10, I would really be worried that there weren't enough to go on and fertilize and then split normally. On Embryo transfer day I would be happy with the obvious 1 to transfer and 2 or 3 to freeze. If I only had 1 to freeze, I'd then be worried that, that was it. only 2 chances, the fresh and the frozen. We cant afford to do another full IVF cycle and we don't qualify for funding till Aug 2012 so this is our only shot. I need those frozen embryos as back up's. If you have already had an IVF cycle, I would be really interested to know how many eggs you retrieved and then how many embryos you were left with?
I also started thinking about how I'm actually going to feel if this fails, and I know I said I wouldn't let myself go there yet, but it's hard not to. I try not too though, as it upsets and stresses me out.After 3 major IUI dissapointments and almost 2 years of trying, it's enough for me. I don't want to start ranting on again because i just make myself mad, and I'm probably just repeating myself again, but its just not fair!!! (angry face), I'm only 29 years old, it's not like I'm 50, so what the hell is going on!
Well maybe I should just go and have another nap. But lets hope I stay awake long enough to actually get through this cycle, although being asleep through the whole thing wouldn't be so bad now would it.