Thursday, January 20, 2011

Waiting for something make's it more exciting?

The idea of waiting for something makes it more exciting right? yes I guess that's true.A bit of a build up really does get one going.

This is probably the first time in a long time that I have been calm in the build up to getting my period. The first time I want it to arrive so I can start. It feels so good not being a panic ridden mental case, I'm just relaxed and waiting for it to come. Of course there is always hope that it might not come and by some miracle, me and the hubby actually pulled this off all by ourselves! how cool would that be. In fact my Gardener Guy said that at dinner last night, "you might not get your period" I told him to stop saying that and giving himself false hope, I just don't want him getting upset. I know it's not going to happen, but imagine my next post was that we didn't even need IVF!! Yeah right.

This will be my last post till i get my period (cycle day 1) and get further instructions form my nurse, but I think I start Puregon Injections on cycle day 2. Most likely our public holiday on Monday will be taken up with me going in for a scan, so while everyone is enjoying going out for brunch, catching up with friends and family, having a sleep in, I'm jabbing myself with needles and sticking a probe in my vagina! yes at my clinic apparently it's too much to ask that the doctor puts the probe in, we have to do it ourselves, Would they also like me to read the scan??? (actually in saying this, I do prefer putting it in myself, just easier now). And saying ill be jabbing myself is a slight lie, My husband will be doing that. from previous trigger injections he did for me, he seems to think he's a real expert and although the upcoming Puregon ones are a bit harder he doesn't appear to have any worries about it all. He is a very sweet man, and I know he will be gentle, sometimes a bit too gentle, ill end up telling him to hurry up. Ill let you know how all that goes. I'm guessing after a few days of shots and the hormone levels are all over the place, ill be tempted to pick up the needle and stab him with it!

So there you go, Im over and out now for a few days. This waiting certainly isn't making my blogs more exciting, there's only so much humour one can put into waiting. I tell you what, perhaps instead of waiting I should be mateing.

6 comments:

  1. Your post has me excited for you! Who'd think people in our IF stillettos would find one cycle they get excited about the arrival of the red carpet! I wish you all the best and can't wait to follow you on your journey! This might just be it!!

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  2. Im really starting to feel like this might just be it for me too! but also trying hard not to get too carried away

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  3. What would we do without hope. I hope your AF doesn't arrive, I hope you don't have to go to IVF & I hope you get the BFP in 2011.
    Just waiting & not knowing is the worse, you find you mind doing funny tricks on you...
    Wishing you all the luck in the world. I too will be following your journey.

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  4. I so know the feeling. Hoping that you wont have to even do IVF, hoping that shocking and unexpected news will come even though deep down knowing its basically impossible. Being scared to hope because of the hurt or the letdown. I just wish that sometimes these letdowns just wouldnt come and we'd all have our hopes come true.

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  5. So excited for this upcoming IVF for you... Oh but what if??? I always have this last-minute hope too...

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  6. you are so funny!! I am imagining you going all nutso and stabbing your hubby!! lol Hey! I commented on your last post..it was not there...I must be losing it! :) anyway..I hope you get your period soon! This is so exciting!!! It is happening really quick for you! Please keep me posted..I will soon be asking you for advice:)

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