Yesterday at 12.51pm at Christchurch in New Zealand the earth shook violently. A devastating quake struck at the worse possible time, people in the central city were at work, out for lunch, kids were at school. Building's were destroyed, people were trapped (and still are), and worse of all lives were lost.
When something terrible happens to you on a personal level, you tend to think that your life is coming to an end, you are the saddest, most depressed person out there. Then something bigger happens, and you realize the whole world does not revolve around you, and life is hard for many people, bad things happen to other people too and what a shame it is.
Yesterday I watched the news for most of the afternoon, Then my gardener guy came home to tell me someone had crashed into our car and left a scratch. It was pouring with rain, the kids were inside going nuts, my husband was trying to frantically sort out the car situation, I was bleeding alot and had been in alot of pain all day, the news was on with terribly depressing and shocking images, and I think it just became too much stress. All I'll say is at one point I threw the phone across the room, and ran out crying, then later on I threw a pair of kitchen tongs and ran to bathroom crying!. My husband was stressed, I was stressed, Family were ringing me to try and work out if other family members were ok in Christchurch, and I think I just snapped. I think between the IVF failing, the fact that I have a terribly painful period which is probably me bleeding out the embryo, the car, and the horrible earthquake and trying to reach family, I just got to a point where I wasn't coping. I'm clearly still not myself.
Today is a new day for me and the residents of Christchurch, hopefully my period calms down and the pain eases off, hopefully today seems somewhat brighter for Christchurch, hopefully there are some miraculous rescues today, and lives saved.
I guess in my little corner of the earth, my life was shaken with bad news on Saturday, but when you look at the bigger picture, there is alot more terrible situations out there, and I need to be thankful that I'm safe, well, and able to fight another shaky battle, for many unfortunately yesterday was the last battle they fought.